[★] somewhere only we know

"I tried to live my life without regrets."
said YM
"Don't regret for anything."

my heart just paused for a while
"I don't regret for meeting you
after four years, but I just regret
that we never together."

But who knows what will really happen if we were together
will it be a happy ending or a tragic ending
who knew

i just remember i had touched your left hand
when you asked to check whether you do have baby hands or not
i laughed because you do have baby hands
and they are just as small as mine
the warmth of your left hand still remains on my left hand
like there's still something uncomplished
but i wouldn't think deeper about it
since i believe i can't make you happy

i have no confidence to be a good gf
after several times of failure
i even doubted that there's something wrong with my personalities
man it's so complicated

i'm so complicated

you are inspiration to my life
a new inspiration which teaches me to live in a different way
you were so confident
you could be the most confident person i've ever met
i never met a person like you
someone like you who impressed me with every single action
but this is why i hate you
you are the kind of person i wish i could be
and you put all your worries away
like they never bothered you before
you act cool, but you aren't cool at all
you are so natural, even in front of me, a person you just dated the first time
i envy you

i hate you too
you remind me of my imperfection
my weakness
my past

you were like a minor character who played a part in my past
but suddenly you jumped/transferred into my present
and you messed my life completely with your words
you might not know
but this feeling was so weird
maybe you should just bring me back to past
give me some times to adjust
you shocked me
i felt like everything seemed unreal
but something inside my heart was beating
there's no doubt that you became a main character in my present
do you know how much i wish to push the 'restart' button

do you know
how this feels like

either a bless or a curse; both
it's what you are meant for me
you are my inspiration to dream of a better life
and not just only think of myself, but think of others around
you are the reason that i hate myself, being so depressed
and so disappointed of myself

were you disappointed?
were you regreted?

this is getting emotional
which is something i don't want to go

i wish my heart stops
my past stops there
because it's time for us to take a bow
and i love you as a friend